For over a year now I've had something on the inside of my left thigh. I brought it to the attention of a doctor in December last year but she said that it was better to leave it alone because it didn't look like it was something bad. I told my doctor, no the one I had already talked to, and she sent me to see a dermatologist. She did a biopsy on it and weeks later I get a call and she tells me that it was nothing dangerous, the end.

The thing is, half of it is still there, now together with a scar that hasn't healed after 3 months. So I go a general doctor and she seemed very understanding and send me back to the hospital to see another dermatologist and they tell me that it isn't anything dangerous and that they won't remove it because it isn't dangerous and I should just let it be.

I don't want to let it be I want it gone. I want them to remove it and they refused, even after I explained that I don't care about if it scar or not, scars I already have plenty of and most of them don't look pretty, fortunately they are on my ass and therefore not on public display (what can I say I'm a klutz) one more will not make a difference. But they simply refused to remove it although it looks bad now, there is still a small scab left and the scar don't look pretty although it has looked worse and half of the thing is still left. If you press it, it will feel like there is something under there the size of a pea.

He said he understands me but he won't remove it anyway because he doesn’t want too because he as a doctor knows what is best for me. Excuse me? I think I know what is best for me and best for me is to have it removed. I was so freaking disappointed and angry that I started to cry and they still refused. If it wasn't for the fact that I'm pretty sure they have a psychiatric ward at the hospital I would have been more vocal about removing it myself when I left. Empty threat but I wasn't happy when I left.

It stood in the referral they got that I wanted it removed and the general doctor I meat didn't seem to think it was anything wrong with removing it but they thought it was. I guess my only choice now is a private doctor. That is going to cost.

I don't photograph well, which is why you most likely will never see a photo of me in this journal.

And apparently there is still hope for SAAB. Let's just hope it remain swedish.

Bought a yaoi manga today, what a shocker, actually it is, I haven't bought once since the last Love Mode manga, whenever that was. Last year I think.

It was a lovely little story called Cigarette Kisses by Nase Yamato. It was actually kind of sweet. A bit on the unrealistic side, I suppose. I was actually surprised by the rather graphic sex scene because I thought it was just going to be lime, not lemon. I based my assumption because when I flipped through the pages skimming it in the store I didn't spot anything graphic and it wasn't wrapped in plastic as Love Mode is. Maybe it is just BLU that does that?

I just realized that I haven't a yaoi tag. That is easily fixed.

If Earth had rings and Koenigsegg Automotive AB is not buying SAAB. To the latter I say Damn it all to hell! If I had the kind of money to buy a car company I would. Don't look at me like that, it is a good and safe car, okay. Besides we have always had that brand when it comes to cars. I grew up with it.

Everyone always talk about how bold Nichelle Nichols character Lt. Uhura was for the people of the sixties and she was, for both black and women, I'm not denying that.

But if you take a look at the very first pilot episode you'll notice that in that episode you have a female first officer, I think that is a bit more bold than pressing buttons and saying "hailing frequencies are open, captain". The female officer was played by Majel Barrett who played nurse Chapel in the original series. Although that character later becomes a doctor it is still a huge step down. And I don't think there are any skimpy little dresses in that pilot episode either and Spock smiles.

Can someone explain to me why every time I go onto my friends page on LJ I get a log on windows popping up? It is only the friends page nothing else.

To whomever is responsibly for it, knock it off!

Edit: I think I've found the problem.

Nicked from gnomenapper

( Writing Meme )

What would you do with 3 trillion dollars?

Kind of hard to wrap your head around that sum, huh? That is what the Iraq war has cost up to now. Imagine all the things you could do with that kind money?

Maybe install filters that reduce CO₂ emissions into the atmosphere. Plant tress in deforested regions that will reduce the CO₂ in the atmosphere. Help people who are starving or dying of thirst. Fix the world economy. Research for alternative fuels. Save the (insert animal of choice here).

I'm just coming up with things here; feel free to step in if you have any ideas.

( In case I say something spoilerish )

Today I ordered the 4th season of Doctor Who, the box-set. I've waited for this for so long. Well, a year anyway. I hope the new guy, Steven Moffat, puts his own spin on the 11th doctor. I think Mr. Davies have run out of ideas because they all are starting to look a little samey.